I AM NOT A REBEL

I am not a rebel
But what I feel is wrong is just not right.
How can I be expected to nod
When my soul is screaming out NO!
You think you have a hold over me
Just because of the years you own.
But my dear its not how long you have lived,
But how you have lived that counts.

My lack of years are made up by my soul
These eyes of mine see what you don't
What you push away as insignificant
Glows with its utmost shine in my eyes.
You put on a stern frown to show your authority
But I in smiles live,
Because what I see as life, you can comprehend never.

I have tried my best to show you
What secrets this life has revealed to me
But you ignore, avoid and overlook
Saying I am just a young rebel talking no sense.

You lay so much importance to petty things
And command I do so too.
But tell me my dear how can I?
How can I dedicate my life to petty things
When life waits for me with open arms.
I am not a rebel,
But I am a lover.
Thirsty for what life has to show to me.

I wish I had enough words
To make you understand what I mean.
I don't mean to offend, annoy or protest
But I cannot agree when my soul disagrees now can I?
You think what is in front of you is of importance,
But I know what is inside is more.
I am not a rebel,
But I am a lover
Only listening to my heart like all lovers do.

Sorry for Today... Promise it gets Better

     This is a public apology to all those who have messaged me and called me, and tried their very best to reach me but in vain. I know I haven’t responded well to your messages and calls, or rather haven’t responded at all. I am truly sorry!
    I do this not intentionally, but I do this because I am young. Right now, this very moment in my life is very crucial to what I shall be for the rest of my life. What i do today will decide who I will be tomorrow. That is why I am always somewhere doing something, that seems insignificant to the common eye, but means something to mine.
     Being so inexperienced it is also hard for me to manage things. More stress laid on management of time. That is why I need you to bear with me now. This is how it is now, but I promise it will get better, I will get better. I am young and on my path to learning.
     I hold all my friends close to my heart. That is why even though I may not stay in close contact with you now, but I am confident that I hold you dear in my heart. With all the love you have for me, I ask you to forgive me for what I do now and stay with me until the better tomorrow....
    

YOU ARE MY FRIEND, YOU ARE MY LORD!

In chaos and in silence,
Your voice has always answered my doubts.
In ecstasy and in despair,
You being has always given me warmth.
Not master, nor King;
Not authoritarian, nor commander;
But you my Family, my Lover, my Guide are.
You are my Friend, you are my Lord.

Men of Flesh and Flaws,
Give you names, and preach your ways
they claim; They talk of Hell,
They promise Heaven,
Yet their countenance is to me so alien.
Their words are so convincing,
And my doubtful mind is swayed
almost; Then I hear your sweet
sweet voice my Lord, and in comfort
I come back to you my Lord.

I believe in you and my Faith stands strong.
They ask me questions,
They doubt my faith,
Misunderstood they judge me so quick.
I feel alone amidst their forceful words,
It is then that I need you the most,
my Lord; And I feel your warm embrace,
around this body you gifted to me.
Not Words, nor Verses;
Not actions, nor Melodies;
Can begin to comprehend,
My faith in you to them.

It is you and me, me and you
And no other man to stop me from being yours my Lord.